Denial

Today, dear reader, I write about mental illness. Today I address my own journey in that darkness. And today I confirm why it all started. I hope you enjoy Day 5's offering.

Rod E. Kok
October 5, 2018

For so long, I denied

what was truth.

I was in control;

no help needed

or wanted.

For so long, I denied

what others saw.

I always knew better;

others simply

were wrong.

Rock bottom felt terrible,

admitting where I was

proved difficult.

I learned over time

to fight the denial.

I gained insight

into my darkness.

I confronted my demons,

called them by name.

Spurning their advances

helped me heal.

This journey never ends;

I will always be

at the crossroads.

I once chose wrong,

look where that

got me.

I refuse to make

that choice again.

For now I know

it all started

with denial.